Thursday, November 09, 2006

Catch The Wind Lyrics (Donovan)

In the chilly hours and minutes,
Of uncertainty, I want to
In the warm hold of your loving mind.

feel you all around me,
And to take your hand, along the
Ah, but I may as well try and catch the wind.

When sundown pales the sky,
I wanna hide a while,
behind your smile,
And everywhere I'd look, your eyes
I'd find.

For me to love you now,
Would be
the sweetest thing, 'twould make me sing,
Ah, but I
may as well, try and catch the wind.

When rain has
hung the leaves with tears,
I want you near, to kill my
To help me to leave all my blues behind.

For standin' in your heart,
Is where I want to be,
and I long to be,
Ah, but I may as well, try and catch the

If we had to find a song that would define our lives then I think that this would be the one for me.
I feel that my life is all about lost hope, lost chances and what should have been and no I am not talking about husband number 2 (if there is a next life then when I meet him I will punch him in the head and tell him what an idiot he was for wasting his life and slap him once more for making me a young widow, selfish git) , I am talking about everything! I feel that most of what
I have lost or missed has been directly linked to me having been a mormon. DON'T get me wrong about the church, I am not saying that I made evil choices but choices were made that I would never make today because I believe there is no God. If it were now I know I would have delayed having children until I could have given them everything they deserved, I would have finished my nurses training and worked nights as a qualified nurse as they were growing up. It could be said that my son Marc died at birth because I was young, living in a bedsit with no money-I was a statistic, even though I will always blame myself it is probably true that I was just a statistic. I see his face in the faces of of the boyfriends of my girls that have passed through my house and now in the first husband and it is not a bad thing, it is a comfort that life goes on and it can be good. They will never go through what I went through, I shall see to that.
WOW! I sound like a lioness ready to protect her young. Perhaps it is these feeling that make me quite happy to spend the rest of my life on my own caring for Beauty. I actually think that Beauty will one day be good enough to care for herself and live her own life and then I will be content with my books, plants and paints and the visits from the grandbabies. It sounds like a good life.

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An Irish Blessing

(A Blessing from St. Patrick)
May the road rise to meet you,

May the wind be always at your back,

May the sun shine warm upon your face,

May the rains fall soft upon your fields,

And, until we meet again,

May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.