JUSTIFICATION

'If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars '

Rabindranath Tagore

It always amazes me that my mood should be so different with the changing of the weather.Today the sun is hiding and I also do not feel as bright as yesterday.

Here I have written a poem to try and explain what it feels like to feel sad for no reason.

I AM SAD

The sun shines
And the sky is oh so blue
The air is warm
And birds sing
No worries
No cares
Those who love me
Close by
Yet still
For no reason
That I
Can fathom
Or understand
I am sad.

Before my children start phoning home to see if I am OK the answer is I AM FINE, in fact as Myra in the film Truly,Madly,Deeply said I AM VERY FINE,I just don't feel as bright as yesterday.

An example of my strange sense of humour!
Today I was looking for the tablecloth that I had used on the lunch table yesterday but I couldn't find it.
And for a moment.......a brief nano second......I thought perhaps one of the girls has picked it up and put it away!
Then I realised what I had thought and couldn't stop laughing!
My children would step over Jimmy Hoffa's body and show no interest as long as it didn't get in their way of food and bed!

Further proof that whilst I may not be feeling 100%, my sense of humour is still intact!This morning I went to the front door to get the post and whilst there I noticed the baseball bat which is allegedly there for protection from home invasion!
It is the bat that Fiona had as a birthday present and within 5 minutes of having it she took it to Ariel's head......NICE CHILD!
Anyway to get back to the point.
We live on a pedestrianised estate so the roads are at the back of the houses and only people you do not know come to the front door so the front door is barely used.

Here is the base ball bat.

And the front door!

It made me laugh when I realised that it would need to be a very clever HOME INVADER to get past all this stuff and you couldn't swing a cat in this area let alone a baseball bat!

Why I should not leave the house with money in my purse and sales on in the shops!

I bought all of these in BHS in the sale.

A pie dish......I can never have too many pie dishes!
There is almost always one of my pie dishes at one of my friends houses.

A cruet set.....believe it or not I do not have one as I only add salt to chips but we do have guests who use salt so I saw this pretty set and it was ALMOST shouting BUY ME,BUY ME! Almost, I am not totally mad!

And finally a sugar holder.
I also rarely use sugar on cereals or in drinks but again,we have visitors who do and this one was so pretty and I didn't have one,so.....I HAD TO(HAD TO!)BUY IT!

And how do I justify buying my new pretty things!
Well,I don't drink alcohol,I don't smoke,I don't go out partying,I don't buy expensive clothes(apart from underwear I haven't bought any clothes for about a month.
I like to party by having lunches or tea parties so I will be able to use my pretty new things then!
WOW I am good at this justifying lark!