Stop me if this gets too deep!!!!!
'There's nowt as queer as folk'
For example,mess with my children and Mama becomes a Mama Bear to be reckoned with but 'kick' me and ' I turn the other cheeck' and I will take all kinds of poop for an easy life or because that is what I feel is the right thing to do.
The times that I have hurt people(no matter what they did to me first) I feel such instant guilt that being mean was just not worth it.
I think that this whole conscience thing comes from going to church regularly(though I am not saying you have to be a church member to have a conscience,far from it) from a very young age.
Yesterday I told a taxi driver off (yes....that one!) for driving on a pavement and expecting me to get off the pavement for him, something the taxi drivers at Beauty's school musn't do because they put the children at risk.
And I still feel bad about it.
But.....he was abusive to me and I am sure he doesn't give a second thought to how he may have upset me.
A question ..........I believe his subsequent behaviour to me was as a direct result of me not being the same religion as him.
But why should that matter?
Just because I don't think the same way as you, because my life has gone in a different direction to you, because maybe I haven't been as lucky as you,because according to you I may have sinned, because according to you I may be The Devil's Whore doesn't mean that I am not a good person and a person that has feelings.
And why do you behave as if you think only your thoughts and opinions matter and I should care how you feel?
Whether I do or don't have a religion or religious feelings the same as yours, doesn't make me a bad person.
I live my life the best way I know how.
I am sorry if your disapointment of who I am makes you behave the way you do.
You need to understand that my life and happiness does not depend on your approval.
I never asked for it to.
Do you think I have taken this too seriously?
Maybe, if so please ignore this blog post.